I know #NotAllMen, but who would like to use me publicly for some woke credibility but privately attack me for personally invalidating other  sexual assault survivors next? What it’s gonna be next? So far men/boys have told me I have invalidated other survivors by:

1.) not crying enough, 2.) being too angry, 3.) insulting burner culture, 4.) not doing enough to publicly distribute help resources despite pending legal proceedings, 5.) going to the police, 6.) not accepting “help” from allies that makes *them* feel better, not me.  

5 out of those 6 were from vocal feminist allies. I’m not saying that I should be free from criticism or consequences from what I say and do. Even in the middle of all this, my accountability is important. But fuck, I’m trying so hard and I know that’s not always good enough but I’m trying to juggle a lot of things here and I apologize that things are getting dropped. But that said, maybe don’t try to use me for public credibility leverage while privately making sure I know that not only am I doing this wrong but that I’m specifically invalidating other victims by doing it. If that’s true, then why the public/private divide? 

Why have these all been men and boys? I’m not saying that I’m incapable of invalidating other survivors but I’m just at such a loss. I mean, on some level I knew that this would happen and it wouldn’t just be theoretical, and I’m still in and ready. But I thought it would be strangers mostly? That said, I’m overwhelmed with the support the community  and our friends have given the (increasingly large) group of us. Thank you. 

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I Said It First
Madison Metricula Roberts
Key: A


Intro:
A B D A
   
Verse 1:
    A
You know I said I loved you first
         B
With you lying on my back
     D                   Bm
Your arms wrapped tight around me
         D               A
And your cock against my ass

  A
I could have said sooner
        B
But the time was never right
   D           Bm
It didn't seem matter though
         D                   A
When you held me through the night


Chorus 1:
G
I knew that you'd say it back
  D
I knew that you'd agree
  A                  F#m
I know your mind and see your heart
         G           D  A B D A
When you speak silently


Verse 2:
        A
Yeah we had such fun together
   B
So many toys to try
  D                    Bm
A sense that time went on and on
   D            A
My patient body high

    A
But hours always dwindled
   B
No matter what our plans
  D               Bm
I wish that I had known
           D                   A
It was the last time we'd hold hands


Chorus 1:
G
I knew that you'd say it back
  D
I knew that you'd agree
  A                  F#m
I know your mind and see your heart
         G           D  A B D A
When you speak silently


Verse 3:
        A
There's trouble now between us
B
Nothing comes for free
   D                 Bm
Frustrated tears and lonely fears
     D          A
Have reached an apogee

  A
I wrote it down, I typed it up
    B
And voiced it there to you
   D            Bm
My lover on the PC screen
  D                  A
I know we won't pull through


Chorus 1:
G
I knew that you'd say it back
  D
I knew that you'd agree
  A                  F#m
I know your mind and see your heart
         G           D  A B D A
When you speak silently


Verse 4:
A
My preemptive playfulness
  B
A tone to set with you
   D                 Bm
To let go parts that hurt me most
    D                  A
The spite that could accrue

  A
I hope we'll both be happier
  B
I hope we'll be all right
  D                    Bm
I hope that we'll have fun again
     D          A
Next time we reunite


Chorus 2:
G
I hope that you'll say it back
  D
I hope that you'll agree
  A                  F#m
I know your mind and see your heart
         G           D  A
When you speak silently

Outro:
A
I knew that you'd say it back
  B
I knew that you'd agree
  D                  Bm
I know your mind and see your heart
         G           D  A B D A
So don't speak silently

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This one is called “Peril on the Sea,” loosely inspired by the hymn and a recent breakup! I’m really happy with the song!

See the FAWM entry or below for lyrics and chords!

Peril on the Sea
Madison Metricula Roberts
Key: A

Intro:
Amaj7 Gmaj7
  x2

Verse 1:
Amaj7           Gmaj7
Danceband on an ocean liner
Dmaj7                         D
we're playing hard but we're  not headliners
Amaj7             C
I am like you and you are like me
D7sus2                 Fmaj7
we'll keep playing but we're sinking slowly
      Bm11/E
And I more in common
     Amaj7          G      Amaj7
with those in peril on the sea

Verse 2:
   Amaj7            Gmaj7
It started out with gentle sailing
    Dmaj7                 D
But winter water sent our hearts and heads swaying
Amaj7                     C
Once the wave crashed and forced us hard to our knees
   D7sus2                    Fmaj7
we faced ice between us, the frozen jagged debris
    Bm11/E
And  I knew I belonged there
     Amaj7          G      Amaj7
with those in peril on the sea


Verse 3:
Amaj7        Gamj7
I see now we never should have started
Dmaj7                    D
With such high hopes but our heart's course uncharted
Amaj7                  C
I put my trust in your role as band lead
    D7sus2                  Fmaj7
But you didn't tell me when and changed to a new key
Bm11/E
I am not different to you
     Amaj7          G      Dmaj7 Amaj7
than those in peril on the sea
    Dmaj7 Amaj7
The sea
    G   D
The sea

Asus2 A
 

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Full MarsCon Schedule here!

New for MarsCon 2020: Metricula and David Tyberg, on stage together!

Madison/Metricula’s Schedule:

• Friday
  • 5pm, Large Auditorium: Concert with David Tyberg
  • 8pm, Room 5 – Cosplay Makeup and Body Painting: A Beginner’s Guide 
• Saturday
  • 1pm, Room 4: Fitness Belongs to All of Us
  • 2pm, Room M: Social and Economic Ramifications of Teleportation
  • 4pm, Small Auditorium: Concert with David Tyberg
  • 7pm, Room 8: Amateur Scientists Doing Real Science
  • 8pm, Room M: Why Maidens Misbehave – The Importance of Intersectional Feminism in Folk Music (18+, hosted by Misbehavin’ Maidens
  • 11pm, Small Auditorium: Open Filking
• Sunday
  • 10am, Small Auditorium: Behind the Music
  • 12pm, Room L: Social Skills in a Digital Age
  • 2pm, Large Auditorium: Round Robin Music Show

David Tyberg’s Schedule:

• Friday
  • 5pm, Large Auditorium: Concert with Metricula
• Saturday
  • 1pm, Room 4: Fitness Belongs to All of Us
  • 4pm, Small Auditorium: Concert with Metricula
  • 6pm, Room 8: Do We Hate Rose Quartz/Pink Diamond?
  • 11pm, Small Auditorium: Open Filking
• Sunday
  • 10am, Small Auditorium: Behind the Music
  • 12pm, Room L: Social Skills in a Digital Age
  • 2pm, Large Auditorium: Round Robin Music Show

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